[blackbook]

for years i've kept black hard cover notebooks of thought unfinished, or things to remind me, or references.. i will bring this same thought to this digital blackbook. it won't always make sense, or be meaningful.
Sun Nov 15

-a low moment

-in anticipation of new bodies

Wed Oct 28

-mono-culture in nature, argro, love

-the receptors for forgetting

-we, they?

Sun Aug 9

-meta living, the act of living in the details of ones life rather than the actual life (in culture)

- the creative imperative

- the touch barrier

- love as an individualized harmonic form of energy

Tue Aug 4

- appearing sexual as subsititute for being sexual.

- the loss of the idea of “woman” in the west.

Mon Jul 27

- beauty as the enemy of good.

- also, beauty as key to unlock a mind from instrumental reason.

Thu Jul 23

- some people don’t want to be challenged, they want comfort.

- stepping around personas and landmined lines.

- the deep need for rains felt in the middle of a long heat wave

- lies

- tony quinn’s penis.

- that homebuilt studio in the woods.

Tue Jul 21

-the opposing argument to men using women foe sex. women twisting men’s physical desire so they can use them emotionally and for attention.

- people floating in and out of your life

- on the bus with six young (pre-teen) black boys all falling asleep around me.

- women using sex to avoid intimacy.

- the current of fear, anxiety and dread everyone is carrying right now?

- twenty ought four

- a complicated life.

- human chum.

- chadwick taylor

Mon Jul 13

- sensations the body was designed for

- too much. too real.

- the returned look meant to cause shame/guilt (jude)

- the opposable mind, opposiing ideas synthesized to one more intuitive idea.

- the wind

- the idea of winter, being consumed by a season

- transitions

- on photogenics

Thu May 7

- the bureau of the lonley heart

Mon Apr 20

- the suffering of fools.

- 1 in 6000 die annually in car crashes. the outflux from flight that occurred after 9/11, into driving, caused nearly as many deaths as the “terrorist attacks”

-but did you ever feel more alive?

-obessesed, bi-polar, drug addict.

-the wolf and the fire and the cold cold night.