November 2009
1 post
-a low moment
-in anticipation of new bodies
October 2009
1 post
-mono-culture in nature, argro, love
-the receptors for forgetting
-we, they?
August 2009
2 posts
-meta living, the act of living in the details of ones life rather than the actual life (in culture)
- the creative imperative
- the touch barrier
- love as an individualized harmonic form of energy
- appearing sexual as subsititute for being sexual.
- the loss of the idea of “woman” in the west.
July 2009
4 posts
- beauty as the enemy of good.
- also, beauty as key to unlock a mind from instrumental reason.
- some people don’t want to be challenged, they want comfort.
- stepping around personas and landmined lines.
- the deep need for rains felt in the middle of a long heat wave
- lies
- tony quinn’s penis.
- that homebuilt studio in the woods.
-the opposing argument to men using women foe sex. women twisting men’s physical desire so they can use them emotionally and for attention.
- people floating in and out of your life
- on the bus with six young (pre-teen) black boys all falling asleep around me.
- women using sex to avoid intimacy.
- the current of fear, anxiety and dread everyone is carrying right now?
- twenty ought...
- sensations the body was designed for
- too much. too real.
- the returned look meant to cause shame/guilt (jude)
- the opposable mind, opposiing ideas synthesized to one more intuitive idea.
- the wind
- the idea of winter, being consumed by a season
- transitions
- on photogenics
May 2009
1 post
- the bureau of the lonley heart
April 2009
2 posts
- the suffering of fools.
- 1 in 6000 die annually in car crashes. the outflux from flight that occurred after 9/11, into driving, caused nearly as many deaths as the “terrorist attacks”
-but did you ever feel more alive?
-obessesed, bi-polar, drug addict.
-the wolf and the fire and the cold cold night.
-beauty as a veil. beautiful women are invisible because we become trapped by their shell?
October 2008
3 posts
- m / “focus comes easier when you keep your life simple. clear. easy. its only when you get tangled up with too much stuff that it gets hard because then you have to fight your own life to get what you want.”
- m / sam malone with meat.
- m / on a world before industrialization where lakes and rivers were free to men
- m / st / shortness of breath
- m / a thousand pairs of eyes, division x expectation
September 2008
19 posts
- m / sexless love affair + sinatra hours
- betrayal
- table13
- sculpting with shadow.
- tired and sick as a preview of old age
- the full and the empty (rather than the sweet and the sour
- i was lost in the lakes and shapes your body makes, great lake swimmers - your rocky spine.
- shoot on the stairs + balcony of arrata opera center.
-learning to swallow it down when nothing can be gained by speaking. the way that burns when you do it, but how important it is.
- the lies we tell ourselves to keep going.
- “wont that be hard for you”
- practice as a exercise of discovering and solving probelms.
- attention.
- the need to say no. the safety of distance. the space of relationships. (talk with jf)
- a sea of flapping wings.
- everyone is out getting their hearts broke again tonight.
- # bowl of fire. box of leaves blown. chase. elemental.
- the first part is always getting anything you can. the second part is getting what you want.
- learning the language and cadence of a different you.
- i gather your need like stones from a dry riverbed.
- falling for an idea, or collection of light
- “before language”
- a gathering of speed
- fertile time.. fertile periods of time.
- the immensity of knowing you could ask anything and get a yes. the void where your desire was moments ago.
- death and the lady.
- sleeper car no one belongs here
- the narrative becoming universal rather than specific. specificity is the result of the audience meeting the lines and bringing them true to themselves (rather than the author).
- i flip through other people’s photos and see myself in them, then flip back and i’ve moved on.
- the old pay for their triumphs with broken hips...
- learning to tell the right lies can make all the difference.
- miranda july. great.
- learning to let the questions go unanswered.
- what if liminality was exactly equal to the point of exquisite pain?
- being less judgemental. less shaping things. less forcing and controlling things.
- the curve poem.
- reciprocity
- rosary..
- six stella artois. seven if you are serious. never more.
- tattoo.. came so far..
- types: one lock, unlocks everything, one lock unlocks another lock. this can repeat forever (m.)
- the cabbie telling me not to for a second “trusting anyone with tha heart”
- it’s complicated.
- glowing shift of focus, internal. luminous.
- a levee to the heart?
-ralph gibson is the father, the son. the holy photographer.
-multi-flash night photos in the woods.
-strange elation of getting what you need, even if you don’t really want it. Reluctant joy?
-asked who influenced you now, ralph gibson replies “the truth is in my case i believe i need to be as cultured as i can possibly make myself.”
-related, he also finds chiaroscuro as a strong base.
-semiology - the study of sign, signification and communication
-black and white for concentration of form and tone.
-talking too much always gets you in the shit. how many times can we repeat the same mistakes?
-” but i feel when i look at the pictures, they are pretty, but it mostly ends there for me.”
-limen // In physiology, psychology, or psychophysics, a limen or a liminal point is a threshold of a physiological or psychological response. the smallest detectable sensation
-she ran away from...
4 x 30 = 120 x 12 = 1440. hmm. math only makes it look worse.
-on how going without starts out bitter and angry, turns pure and clear and heightens your experience. want become focusing crystal.
-related how the ultimate realization time and time again is how little you really need to get on.
-on feeling less than because you don’t have, in comparision.
-on the strange sadness of not being able to make a nice dinner for daja.
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no matter...
think on rereading iron john again. take more notes this time. take more time to read it this time. consider more fully the concept of a body without shame.
number one request for tumblr. photo upload. jeez. right now I have to manually size a photo (each of my three tumblelogs is different size), then upload it to my server, then gather the url for that upload, then insert the image.. its a hassle. really.
as of the prop shoot for “When that I was” I’ve taken 22,268 with my Pentax K10D, from around 20 february 2007. which must average out to around 1200 or so pictures a month.