September 2008
19 posts
- m / sexless love affair + sinatra hours
- betrayal
- table13
- sculpting with shadow.
- tired and sick as a preview of old age
- the full and the empty (rather than the sweet and the sour
- i was lost in the lakes and shapes your body makes, great lake swimmers - your rocky spine.
- shoot on the stairs + balcony of arrata opera center.
-learning to swallow it down when nothing can be gained by speaking. the way that burns when you do it, but how important it is.
- the lies we tell ourselves to keep going.
- “wont that be hard for you”
- practice as a exercise of discovering and solving probelms.
- attention.
- the need to say no. the safety of distance. the space of relationships. (talk with jf)
- a sea of flapping wings.
- everyone is out getting their hearts broke again tonight.
- # bowl of fire. box of leaves blown. chase. elemental.
- the first part is always getting anything you can. the second part is getting what you want.
- learning the language and cadence of a different you.
- i gather your need like stones from a dry riverbed.
- falling for an idea, or collection of light
- “before language”
- a gathering of speed
- fertile time.. fertile periods of time.
- the immensity of knowing you could ask anything and get a yes. the void where your desire was moments ago.
- death and the lady.
- sleeper car no one belongs here
- the narrative becoming universal rather than specific. specificity is the result of the audience meeting the lines and bringing them true to themselves (rather than the author).
- i flip through other people’s photos and see myself in them, then flip back and i’ve moved on.
- the old pay for their triumphs with broken hips...
- learning to tell the right lies can make all the difference.
- miranda july. great.
- learning to let the questions go unanswered.
- what if liminality was exactly equal to the point of exquisite pain?
- being less judgemental. less shaping things. less forcing and controlling things.
- the curve poem.
- reciprocity
- rosary..
- six stella artois. seven if you are serious. never more.
- tattoo.. came so far..
- types: one lock, unlocks everything, one lock unlocks another lock. this can repeat forever (m.)
- the cabbie telling me not to for a second “trusting anyone with tha heart”
- it’s complicated.
- glowing shift of focus, internal. luminous.
- a levee to the heart?
-ralph gibson is the father, the son. the holy photographer.
-multi-flash night photos in the woods.
-strange elation of getting what you need, even if you don’t really want it. Reluctant joy?
-asked who influenced you now, ralph gibson replies “the truth is in my case i believe i need to be as cultured as i can possibly make myself.”
-related, he also finds chiaroscuro as a strong base.
-semiology - the study of sign, signification and communication
-black and white for concentration of form and tone.
-talking too much always gets you in the shit. how many times can we repeat the same mistakes?
-” but i feel when i look at the pictures, they are pretty, but it mostly ends there for me.”
-limen // In physiology, psychology, or psychophysics, a limen or a liminal point is a threshold of a physiological or psychological response. the smallest detectable sensation
-she ran away from...
4 x 30 = 120 x 12 = 1440. hmm. math only makes it look worse.
-on how going without starts out bitter and angry, turns pure and clear and heightens your experience. want become focusing crystal.
-related how the ultimate realization time and time again is how little you really need to get on.
-on feeling less than because you don’t have, in comparision.
-on the strange sadness of not being able to make a nice dinner for daja.
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no matter...
think on rereading iron john again. take more notes this time. take more time to read it this time. consider more fully the concept of a body without shame.
number one request for tumblr. photo upload. jeez. right now I have to manually size a photo (each of my three tumblelogs is different size), then upload it to my server, then gather the url for that upload, then insert the image.. its a hassle. really.
as of the prop shoot for “When that I was” I’ve taken 22,268 with my Pentax K10D, from around 20 february 2007. which must average out to around 1200 or so pictures a month.